Forgotten Cheese...

30 Days of truth-Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but who drifted.

This is something I have been thinking about for quite sometime, actually. I wouldn't just say one person, but a group of people. I call them my "Morning Peeps" because every single morning before school we would hang out and wait for class to start. It never failed. We had our certain spot in the atrium, and every morning it was hugs, laughs, sometimes tears as we tried to help out one another. We were like the 3 amigos, but there was just more than 3 of us haha. After high school we tried to keep in touch through facebook and all that, but for some reason, we all just went our separate ways. I even invited all of them to my wedding, and not a single one came. I am so glad that we did have the chance to make memories, but apart of me still waits in hope that one day we might all get together again one day. Who knows? lol TTFN <3

Hell's fire Meltin the Cheese...

30 Days of Truth-Day 8: Someone who has made your life hell or treated you badly.

Well, I have already told a few stories regarding some people who have treated me poorly, and I was trying to avoid this subject, but due to not having any more stories, except this one, I will just have to tell it.

I would have to say that in a way, my ex and the woman he left me for have probably wronged me even worse than anyone ever has. I let someone who had lost everything, even the love of her family at the time, move into my home and take complete advantage of my hospitality. I paid for her visa, her plane ticket, I didn't charge her rent, I clean up after them, and because I was the ONLY one working at the time, I paid for all the bills and food that the three of us ate, and do you think I ever asked for a cent in return, no. I'm just not like that. Anyway, after a while me and everyone else looking in noticed that the relationship between her and my boyfriend of three years was much more than just a friendship. I won't go into all the details, but lets just say thank goodness I paid for her ticket because I was also able to pay to send her and her belongings back. Well, even though she was back in England, their relationship continued, and I knew it. I am not as dumb as most people seem to think, and I am not naive. I am, however very strong. Turns out, things just weren't working the way I had hoped, and the moment he left, my world came crashing down, or so I thought.

In actually, if I ever have the chance, I will thank them. They made it possible for me to find true happiness. It was a bitter sweet circumstance, but I am actually very grateful. Because of them, I was able to reconnect with the love of my life. We married 5 months after my ex left, and I now realize that all the money spent, and all the tears cried were worth the happiness I now have. I never thought I could meet someone that makes me feel the way my husband does. Call me mushy or whatever, but it's the truth. He is my other half, and who knows where I would be if my ex and his current girlfriend hadn't done what they did. Yeah they put me through hell, yeah they wronged me, but it was for the best overall. They actually gave me what I had been searching for my entire life. I no longer feel anger or pain. Just gratitude, and even though they will probably never know, I actually appreciate everything they did, and I really hope they are as happy as I am. Being able to feel love like I feel everyday is something I would hope EVERYONE, regardless if they have wronged me or not, gets to feel at some point in their lives. So, if you're reading this, thank you, seriously and sincerely, thank you. TTFN <3

The happy Cheese...

30 Days of Truth-Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living.

There are so many people that deserved to be mentioned in this post. My mom, some others in my family, some of my friends, but there is one person that right now I am especially grateful for, and that is my husband.

My husband is my world, and without him, who knows where I would be. The first time I met him, something deep down went off like a light bulb, and even though I could not act on my feelings, due to being in a relationship, those feelings were always there. A couple of years passed before I became single again, and the moment I did, he was right there, ready to take his proper place in my heart. He fights and defends this country, and he loves me more than anyone has ever loved me before. He treats me better than I probably deserve, and I hope that I return the favor. Although I am so proud of him for what he does, his deployment will be difficult to deal with, but I know my hero will return in my arms safely. I dont think he will ever understand how much he means to me, but waking up next to him everyday has, so far, been the greatest and most generous thing God could have given me. I love him so much, and I am so lucky to have snagged him when I did ;) TTFN <3

Knocking on Cheese...

30 days of truth-Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Okay, so I am now officially back, and shall continue with my 30 days of truth, even though I am pretty sure almost 60 days have past since I last started doing these shenanigans. lol

But seriously, I guess the one thing that I hope I never have to do is open my front door. Not to just anyone because I am actually pretty friendly, but to the two (or however many there might be) men dressed in official military uniforms that bring all of the military wives (or husbands) the bad news that they oh so dread to get while their loving soldier is off to war.

I am so unbelievably proud of my husband for everything he has and will continue to do for this country. I love going to random places and hearing people thank my husband or giving him a free drink to show their gratitude towards him. Every time someone expressed their thanks, my pride as a military wife just grows and shines even more and more. He is such an incredible man, and I honestly don't know where I would be right now without him. He works so hard everyday, and treats me even better than I deserve, and although I have faith that he will return to me safely, the thought of having to hear someone else tell me that he won't be coming home would be......indescribably horrific.

But like I said, I know he will come home safely, and although I will miss him dearly while he is gone, I will be so happy to welcome him back, and hopefully there will be a little someone to greet him with me when he returns ;) <3 TTFN

AWOL Cheese...

I know, I know. I have not posted anything in like FOREVER! Good news though, it's not because I have lost interest in blogging, it's just because I am in the middle of moving to Texas, and access to the internet is very limited. Haha

Once I do get settled into my house, I shall continue my 30 day blog, and your bordom shall resume. TTFN <3

A Must Have Kinda Cheese...

30 Days of truth: Day5- Something you hope to do in your life.

There are so many things that I want to do in my life.

First of all, I want to have a baby..which my husband and I are currently trying to make happen, so CROSS YOUR FINGERS! But I have always wanted to be a mom. I am the oldest girl, out of what seems like a million grandchildren, lol so I have always been around kids, changed diapers, the works. Even before having a desire to go to school, being a mom has always been my top priority, and I hope it happens soon :D

Secondly, I want to study criminology so that I might be able to be apart of a forensic team in the future. No, I don't watch CSI so it's not just a phase I am in. It's just something I have always had an interest in doing. Yeah seeing a dead body may be gross and devastating, but catching the jerk that committed the crime would be worth it. I know I can't change the world, but it would be nice to make some sort of difference...someone's got to do the job, right?

Thirdly, I would like to participate in a murder mystery dinner. I think it would be so much fun and fascinating, although my husband seems to think that a real murder would occur, and it could be my death people would be solving..lolol ;)

Other than that I just want to live a happy life with my family. Skydiving was on my list of things to do, but I did that on my 21st birthday, and oh man was it fun :P. I guess I could say I have to do it again haha. But that about sums it up :D TTFN <3

Wronging the Cheese...

30 Days of truth: Day4: Something you have to forgive someone else for.

I am usually a forgiving person, and in fact, there are somethings I have forgiven people for that I shouldn't have, which should tell you that when I have a hard time forgiving someone, I probably won't be able to.

When I was a little girl, my mom always had to work two jobs because my "sperm donor" had left by the time I was two, and my Dad didn't come into the picture until I was 12 or so. Anyway, while she worked hard, my wonderful Aunt Jane would always baby sit my brother and me. She loved my brother and all, but I was the favorite. I was "THE girl"..literally, that's what her and my Uncle Bob called me. They did everything for me, taught me my ABC's, how to read, tie my shoes, play basketball, ride a bike, and they took me to sea world and Disney Land EVERY year.

So needless to say, I was VERY close with my Auntie Jane. Well one night, when I was 16, I got a call saying that my Aunt Jane was in the hospital, and she was dying. I asked how long she had, and they said she would be gone any minute. My grandparents had bought my mom a ticket to fly to Utah (because we were in Georgia), but my mom gave it to me. I was on the first flight to Utah in the morning, but I was terrified I didn't have that long. I called my Aunt Jane, even though she was mostly unresponsive, and asked her to wait for me. I was told that when I did, she opened her eyes, which was the first response she had shown in hours, and she did. She waited for me. Not 30 minutes after I got there and said my goodbyes, she passed. It was the saddest moment of my life, but I was glad she moved onto a better place.

Now telling you that, I'll tell you who and why I "need" to give forgiveness. My Aunt Jane's son, my cousin, Bobby, was like my brother. I looked up to him in so many ways, but unfortunately, he got into some hardcore drugs, and couldn't stop, but no matter what people said, I never gave up on him. Until the day mu Aunt Jane died. Right after she had died, everyone crying their eyes out, and my Uncle still in shock, my cousin, Bobby, apparently wasn't worried about anything except where his next hit was coming from, and his answer? My Aunt's wedding ring. He never got it, thank God (literally), but he fact that his own mother, had just died, and he tried to steal her ring for drugs. How messed up is that? So he is the one I will have to forgive, and you know his crime, and I don't know if I ever will forgive him, but probably not. <3 TTFN